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I logged on today and I just happened to notice this particular link:
In case you're not the type of individual who likes to click on links, I'll summarize the above for you. Apparently, people are having a great deal of trouble trying to decide what is 'too much' when it comes to having sexual content in video games. The new Leisure Suit Larry game by Vivendi and a game by Eidos that's something similar to a more sexual version of the Sims are being targetted specifically. Now, as most of you who know me would know about me, I am not exactly the type of person who is hellbent on this type of thing (sexually charged games, videos, pictures, etc). This, however, makes me laugh my ass off because it makes me wonder when people lost their fucking minds and their ability to think for themselves. Wow, now people need the ESRB to tell them what games are good for them and which will offend their moral sensabilities. Oh no, sexuality by animated characters on a computer screen! All hell shall break loose, black will become white and society as we know it will cease to exist! Give me a fucking break. I'm starting to wonder when it became obvious that people need a rating system in order to tell them what their kids should and should not have access to. I guess that makes up for a shitty parenting job that most people are capable of nowadays. God forbid that you might actually try the goddamn game and make up your own mind or, as EVIL as it sounds, let the kids or whatever make up their own minds. I mean, shit, maybe if kids were actually raised with some decency and given a chance to think about things on their own, maybe some of the shit today wouldn't be happening. Maybe kids wouldn't be these whiney little fuckers who think the world belongs to them and that maybe they would actually learn a little responsibility instead of running to their parents or psychologist when they have to make a decision about things. But no. Can't possibly do that. They need a watch dog to make up for their shitty excuse for a parenting job. There's a little problem with that though: said watch dog ends up run like some Gestapo organization that wants kids to think of only nice and flowery bullshit, shielding them from things that involve reality, like violence or sexuality.
So what does this do? It's fitting pretty well with society as it stands, getting someone to tell others what to do because they have the authority of an official sounding organization to tell them what's right or wrong. For example, 'The Church'. Sounds pretty official, but they seem to know about what they're talking about in regards to filling their pockets and doing some rather bad things to children while attempting to get lawful immunity. ESRB would be another good example of this, telling what is 'right and wrong' about video games and what is 'good and decent'. Apparently most people are too stupid to figure out that if they see sex in a video game, that they can decide for themselves if they want to see it or not. It's not that hard to do. Just need a few functioning neurons to slam together and try to form something resembling a cognizant thought. I admit, this might be asking a lot from a great deal of people, particularly from the tin foil hat wearing types or puritans, but anyone can manage a thought once in a while. It's either, "I like this," or "I don't like this." None of those words have any more than one syllable and there's only three in one of them. It's not very complex. Perhaps, though, this is why we have so many goddamn sheep in our world. Nobody has to think for themselves anymore. All they need is a label so they don't have to consider something.
I really can't wait until most of the population get so retarded that they NEED something like a Big Brother system in order to be able to live their day to day lives. It'll make things a lot easier when trying to get ahead. Instead of having to compete, you can just distract them with something shiny and they'll all run off cliffs and such like good little lemmings. Food for thought.
Enough with the pointless rant though. :) It's the middle of May and things are going pretty decently for me. Unfortunately, I don't have a job for the moment, but I'm now registered with school, have a decent amount of money left over from my student loan from last year (most of which will go toward my schooling this year), and I'm generally over my burn out from school. It took a hellish amount of time to try and recover, but school just manages that real well. I've been working on quite a few things lately, trying to get shit in order for my stories and I think things are proceeding well. I'm hoping that by the end of May I'll have most of the editing done on one of my novels and I should be able to send it off to a publisher. Here's hoping anyways. In the meantime though, I've been working on other stuff, getting ready for other projects of writing and also attempting to get into a writing course for college for third year. One of the prerequisites is 30 pages of text, total story stuff. This shouldn't be a big problem, but one of the real drawbacks with writing plain fiction is that, frankly, it can be pretty goddamn boring, to say the least. It's fine and all, but there are far more exciting things to write out there than that.
I think what I've been finding odd lately is I've actually been having some pretty severe delusions of grandeur. This isn't a bad thing, but when I sit back and I think about things, all the goals I would like to achieve and what I wish I could do, I start to think about story ideas and the like, adding to my already too large pile of things that I want to do. I've got a couple more goals tacked onto my all time goals to perform in my lifetime though. It looks like this now for the most part:
1. Get a Novel Published
2. Write a Screenplay for a Movie Based on Ideas of Myself and Others with me. (NEW!)
3. Get a job in writing for a TV Series/Movie (NEW!)
4. Work with People on an Animated Series Based on Ideas of Myself and Others with me. (NEW!)
Originally, only the first one existed, as I managed my previous one by going to college and by finishing my first novel when I was 15. I also finished another of them by presently performing my rewrite on that particular novel. I've been published in a magazine or two (a short story), but I'm going to be working toward getting another one published eventually when I can. For the most part, I think I've been trying to keep my goals to things that I could achieve within the next few years of my life, but that appears to have taken a bit of a backseat to the overall desires that I have. I mean, it isn't a bad thing by far, I'd really enjoy working on all those things. Who knows what'll happen really though? I'm really looking forward to trying more things in the future though, trying to expand my horizons and attempting to succeed in all the things I want to do. For now though, my largest is just getting that novel published. As for the remainder, well, just have to see what I can do.
I will admit, completely, that one of the things that brought up that want to work on an animated series of my choosing was the fact that in recent times, there was a short movie called Ghost Warrior.
I've no doubt that many of you have seen this, but for those of you who haven't, I would highly recommend that you look into it. The trailer is worth the download, trust me. What is particular special to me though about this movie is the challenge that the person who made it performed. Look at the trailer and the screenshots, think about what you like about it and what you think of the graphics. Then consider the fact that the entire thing was made in 6 months by one man. I found this rather hard to believe at first, but that was what most of the hype was about. On two consumer grade computers, this guy made a 22 minute, Hollywood level quality short movie, from the middle of nowhere in Alaska, in a cabin. Why would this intrigue me and give me ideas like that? Well, it's simple really.
What this tells me is that my dream of being a part of something like that might not be as far fetched as I once considered it to be. I have no artistic skills in the least, nor do I have any skills with animation. There are many people who do though; people who aren't working or are having trouble finding jobs in the industry. Now consider having twelve to fifteen of these people, from all over the place to less, who are willing to assist in the creation of something like that. Salaries for that many people would be manageable by profits for a movie. And if one man can make that much in 6 months by himself, then imagine what 15 people, all trained in the same type of animation with the same skill level, could do. The fact that one man did 22 minutes in 6 months, it would also take a hell of a lot less time with more people working on it as well (assuming they worked well together, etc). This gives me hope that all the cartoons that I've wanted so badly, all the characters whom I've wanted to see, showing up on a TV...well, that's something that would put a permanent smile on my face. The possibilities exist now, for things like that, it's just a matter overall of getting an opportunity to do something in that scope. The door is more or less opened now, people just have to see what they can do about stepping through it and making all the beautiful things that they've wanted to. I'd recommend going to that site and reading the 'Challenge' section of it. It explains things better than I can.
Perhaps its these new thoughts, these odd feelings of happiness and hope for the future that are making me seem a little more content with things nowadays. Perhaps its just the fact that I still have 3.5 months off of school. Who knows really? What I do know for certain, though, is that I've been rather happy lately, far more than months before, and I'm thinking that I can keep it up. I just have to keep my chin up and maybe things'll turn out good. One never really knows.
Bouncey and happy for a change,